It's absolutely insane that it is already TWOTHOUSANDTWELVE.
I remember looking forward to my life in anticipation, where I'd go to college, who would my friends still be, who I'd date, what kind of a person I'd be becoming, what kind of person I would have been... Millions of thoughts ran through my head on a daily basis especially in high school. I always have been on the "fast track" in life, and if you know me at all you know that to be true. I have always tried to rush things, not really looking at the scenery of life as it passes but just trying to get through it and onto the next thing. Even in college, I've been in college for 1 and 1/2 years so far and I'm due to graduate in that exact amount of time. Spring 2013, the date is set. That amazes me because honestly, I still feel little, I still feel small in this world and the fact that in only 1 and 1/2 years I'll be on my own is extremely terrifying but exciting all at the same time. I know God has a ginormous plan and I pray each day that I can continue to stay apart of it.
This past year, in reflection, honestly was a whirlwind of emotions. Great times, sad times, confusing times, and completely clear moments to follow. I've learned a lot, both academically and about myself and I wouldn't trade those rough "learning moments" for anything. I really feel like I'm becoming the woman God wants me to be and I'm so thankful for all the wonderful people who have helped me along the way.
Although I know I'm on the right track, I KNOW I can be doing better and that disappoints me. My nature of trying to speed things up makes me try to have the quickest most effective days entirely, and that includes spending time with the Lord. I don't want to be living a mediocre life where I just kind of sit on the side lines waiting for God to use me but I want to be proactively seeking opportunities to serve Him and to make a difference in my community. I have seen how the service of my home church in Nevada as been transforming the valley my family lives in and I have been extremely inspired to live a life of service as well. I know that the Lord can use what little I have at school and I want to allow him to do so. So many times I fill my free time with pointless activities like facebooking and the dreaded time consumer: pinterest! (If you have one, you KNOW what I'm talking about ;)) But I want to honestly make a difference, to stop making lame excuses and actually LIVE.
2012, I'm ready for you. I'm ready for your challenges and I'm ready for your adventures. I have this confidence because I know beyond a shadow of a doubt that my God will help me through and that he will give me the strength and experience I need to serve Him.
"Now if we are children, then we are heirs—heirs of God and co-heirs with Christ, if indeed we share in his sufferings in order that we may also share in his glory. I consider that our present sufferings are not worth comparing with the glory that will be revealed in us... And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose... What, then, shall we say in response to this? If God is for us, who can be against us? ...For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord."
-Romans 8:17-18, 28, 31, 38-39
