I am another month older...

Exactly one month has past since my first day as a college student. 
I have grown up and changed already. 
I no longer have to be accountable to my parents for every decision I make, rather I am accountable solely to myself and my Heavenly Father. 


So here I sit, with a million thoughts running through my head, not exactly knowing what to think or what to do. I have tests to study for, homework to do, friends to see, books to read and people to pray for. Each day I contemplate how to be more efficient with my time and how to spend each and every moment like it's my last, truly living life to its fullest. 
Life is too short, too quick to waste it on stressful and worrisome topics; i'm through with those. 
I'm ready to jump into what God has for me, I'm ready to fully experience life and experience life in its highest form. 


I feel like a child in a large candy shop. There are so many options, so many paths I can and could take. Only one can lead me exactly where I want to be, where I want to end up; right in God's arms, knowing I ran the race and finished. I don't know what the plan is, I don't know where the path leads... but I do know MY GOD is in control and he has greater plans than I could ever imagine. 


I hate not knowing but I love being surrendered. 
I hate being scared but I love being comforted. 
I have a peace that I've never experienced before. 
I know my time is short, but I know his plan is great. 
He is my strength, My Heavenly Father watches over me and has a clear and perfect plan for me. So it doesn't matter where it goes, where it leads, what i do or who i become... as long as I'm in HIS perfect plan, all will end well. 


I have never experienced so much uncertainty in my life, 
never been so uncertain of my future, 
so confused about my decisions and so helpless for myself, 
but I have also never felt so secure in the unknown plan for me, 
felt such a peace in my heart about my life, 
embraced such a love; all of this only found in sweet surrender. 


I'm tired of living just to live...
surrendering to the unknown.
Faith in its purest form.